My computer was broken for nearly two months.
At the beginning of August, when Brandon was off on another mission, it just didn’t turn on. I had a friend diagnose it to be a hard drive issue and the solution was just to get another hard drive. Easier said than done. My computer traveled to New York and back, in Brandon’s luggage, and returned to me broken still, when we ordered a new hard drive at the beginning of September. Being overseas, we had to send it to the in-laws, who then sent it to us, and it took a good couple weeks, and then Brandon had to actually install it…
I gained access to it finally about a week ago. It’s not like I was completely helpless since I had Brandon’s computer, but you know how it is working from another person’s device — it just isn’t the same. I couldn’t access all my photos and files, so I was floundering at best. My iPad and iPhone were useless when it comes to work or blogging or anything but games and Instagram. So I was on a forced break.
But it was good. And it made me evaluate things. It made me realize that right now, blogging isn’t my thing.
It tears at me, though, because sometimes I want to sit down in my space and pound out my thoughts. Just get it all out. Since I don’t, though, those thoughts drift in and they drift out, and I suppose that’s the way life should be sometimes. I like not feeling obligated to take those photos and compose that post. I’m perfectly fine with spending my time doing other activities.
I’m not letting go completely. I might do monthly updates still, because I feel it a bit of a disservice to not have an online record for Thomas where I have Penny’s updates so clearly outlined. So I suppose keep an eye out for his three month update soon (and late). I also can’t just let my website fall apart, because it does contain years of our life, and how do I just let that go? I’ll just have a bit more silence than ever before. And that’s okay.
But follow me on Instagram, where I post almost daily.
And follow me on my doula page, Two Birds Birth Services, where I plan on posting some birth related posts.
And stick around. Or not. It’s been nice having you here for this journey so far, though. Thank you.