Sometimes I look like I have this baby thing under control. She's sleeping through the night by some miracle from the heavens and she seems like a pretty happy baby most of the time. I might have figured this out.
Except most days from the moment I wake up to the moment I fall asleep I feel like I'm teetering on the edge of a cliff and something is barely holding me up.
I'm a control freak and I like my routines. Before baby was born you could predict how my day would go. I'd wake up at the same time, I'd eat the same breakfast, watch the same shows, and walk the dog at the same time each day. Same same same.
Of course, Penny comes into the picture and everything changes. I expected it and I'm not surprised. My logical brain is telling me to shut up and the crazy side of my brain is freaking out still. It's saying, it's been over nine weeks now! Haven't you figured this out yet?
I figured out one thing: As soon as you think you figured it out, everything changes again.
I'm learning to roll with it. I'm letting Penny take the lead and with the help of some trusty baby books, we're working on sorting our life out together. Like I've said before, she's a pretty easy baby. Doesn't cry much, likes to be held a certain way, eats every 3-4 hours... we're blessed!
I do have to say that today I'm very happy. Yesterday I realized that Penny wasn't sleeping very well during the day because of all the changes. She would only sleep in our arms or in the car, but as soon as she was moved, she'd wake back up. That just makes for a grumpy baby. So thanks to Facebook advice from friends, we started something new today. We re-started swaddling her for naps and now she's sleeping over an hour each nap! I can even put her down in her bed and leave the room. Also, we put one of our shirts in there so she could smell us still and feel close. Magic, she's napping like normal again! Once we get to the in-laws tomorrow, we plan on putting her to bed earlier in the night to get her back on the Hawaii schedule. The three hour time difference has thrown her off a bit.
So yeah, I'm figuring it out. I feel like I have it some days, though I'm still waving my arms around to keep myself from falling off the cliff. And I know I'm not the only one! Have you felt like this before, baby or not?