Summer of Missed Routines


I feel all out of sorts this summer. I spent all of June waiting for a baby and have spent all of July taking care of this baby. We’re figuring out our new family and, while I love it, it’s making me feel uncomfortable and anxious. I’m a person who sticks to habits and doesn’t change them easily. Not easily at all. I think that’s where my occasional anxiety is coming from. I’m trying my best to appreciate the flow of life, to know that we will settle into our [Continue Reading…]

Thomas – One Month


  Thomas is one month! Time sure has flown this month. We’ve been so busy since he was born! First, we spent a week driving to and from the NICU. Once he was home, we had paperwork to do (thanks, Army!) and places to be, and I had healing to do. Before we knew it, Brandon was back at work and I was fending for myself with two kids. It was rough. (I kid, I kid, it’s actually been a breeze!) July has been good to us. Thomas has been [Continue Reading…]

Thomas – Newborn Photos


We got Thomas’s newborn photos done a couple weeks after he was born. It was me, Penny and Thomas, the photographer and her housekeeper, crammed into a scorching hot apartment taking photos for a few hours. When I say hot, I mean HOT; there was a heat advisory that day! Yikes. You know how newborn photos are usually taken in warm rooms anyway, to keep the babies happy and sleepy. Well, Thomas doesn’t do well in the heat. He’s hot-natured and overheats QUICK. He was fussy and difficult until we [Continue Reading…]

State of the Household

I’ve been meaning to sit down for days, weeks, to write up a blog post since I posted Thomas’s birth story. I have so many ideas running through my mind. Well, the days get away from me. If we aren’t running from this activity or to that place, we’re hanging out at home, and I’m taking the quiet times I get to actually be quiet. Watch TV. Listen to a podcast. Take a bath. July is the month of ME. But anyway, I wanted to get some thoughts out, and [Continue Reading…]

Thomas Henry: A VBAC Birth Story


If I had one word to describe this whole experience, it would be, patience. Patience, because he was born at 41 weeks and 1 day. Patience, because I was in early labor for 60 hours. Patience, because he didn’t get to come home right away with us and spent extra nights at the NICU. Here is Thomas’s birth story.   On Friday, June 26th, I woke up at 2:30am to some early labor contractions. They felt different from the Braxton Hicks I would get during the night. Sort of period-like cramps in [Continue Reading…]

Thomas Henry: An Announcement & NICU Update


Introducing… Thomas Henry Born June 28, 2015 at 6:44pm 8lbs 10oz, 21.5 inches I’ll post the full birth story in a day or two. Now comes the hard part: After six hours together, Thomas was whisked away to the nearest NICU because of concern over his breathing patterns. So instead of cuddling all night, breastfeeding when we could, and getting to know this new little (or slightly bigger than I expected!) guy, we spent the night alone while he stayed at the NICU at a totally different hospital. I couldn’t [Continue Reading…]

Happy Father’s Day!


 Happy Father’s Day to my Dad and Happy Father’s Day to my Brandon! He’s been so much more than I could ever ask for in a dad for our Penny, and this baby that I was hoping would be here to celebrate Father’s Day, but is still comfy inside my belly! This guy is a hard-worker, a playful fun guy, and perfect for what our kids need. I really couldn’t ask for more! <3

In which I’ll be pregnant forever…


It sure feels like it anyway. I know pregnancy ends, one way or another. I mean, I’m a freaking doula. You can’t get things past me. I know all the natural induction techniques — will people stop telling me to have sex with my husband? Nope. I know what to expect after the birth — my places are going to hurt, I got it. In the past two days, I’ve had ten people ask me “Where’s the baby?!” and “Are you ready?!” I know everyone means well, because they’re excited, and we [Continue Reading…]

June is Baby Month!


The clothes are washed and put away. Diapers prepped. Crib put together. Carseat all set up, just waiting to be installed. Hospital bags are half-packed, but there isn’t much left. My to-do list is growing thinner. Anticipation. That’s how I feel these days. But the feeling is a good anticipation, an excited anticipation. Back in October, when we found out that this baby was growing in my belly, June felt like a far off time. Like it didn’t even exist. Then the holidays passed, the year turned to 2015, we [Continue Reading…]

What’s the point of marriage anyway?

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I realized something the other day: Brandon is one of the only ones that I can maintain eye contact with. It’s a quirk of mine that I’ve noticed more and more as I get older. When I have conversations with people, even close friends, I have trouble maintaining eye contact. Except with him. I can look into his whiskey-colored eyes and hold them until one of us is forced to blink. I’m not uncomfortable, not unsure, not intimidated. Not with him. But maybe that’s how it is after nine years [Continue Reading…]